Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.
Living for God requires us to lay aside our own will, our own desires, and our own plans and accept God’s plan and His will. Walking with God means to be like Him and the more we cause ourselves to be like Him, the closer we will be to Him.
God wants us to take up our cross just like He did and follow Him. Why? He doesn’t want to kill us. He wants us to be obedient. The cross in that passage symbizes a bond, a commitment, to God. When you “take up your cross”, you are saying, “ok Lord, whatever your will is, whatever you want me to do, where ever you want me to go, I will do it. Your will is my desire”. After you have committed to God and surrendered and turned your life over to Him, you have a desicion to make. You can either follow him and live righteously and turn from sin or you can go back to living the way you used to live, picking up your old sinful habits and never growing in the Lord.
Repenting and surrendering to God is the easy part. The hard part is picking up the cross and following Him. What if you come to a door that your cross does not fit through (example: someone invites you to come to the club)? Do you lay down your cross and go through the door? Or do you say no and go to the next door?
The scriptures say that the path we are to take is straight and narrow. Imagine you are holding your cross over your shoulder. Now imagine how you would look from a bird’s eye view directly above you. The cross would no longer look like a “t”, but it would look like a straight line. That straight line is always going to fit down the straight and narrow path. If you set down your cross, it will lay flat in that bird’s eye view and will resemble a “t” again and will no longer fit on the narrow path.
This is to encourage you to never let go of what you have picked up. Don’t set down your commitments. Don’t let yourself get caught up in emotions. You are not alone in this and God will give you the strength to hold the cross when it becomes too heavy.
Do not give up.