I’m feeling down today.. humbled maybe is a good word, I’m thinking about how God has saved me but I don’t deserve it. Yes I want to go to heaven, I’d love it if God took me now, I’m ready but my thought is, I don’t deserve to go while there will be others left down here.
Who am I to able to go to such a wonderful place while there are so many souls that aren’t ready and as I’m thinking about it, I just start crying.
On top of that, All morning I’ve been quoting John 14:27 which says “peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you, not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid” and I was reading John 14 after I cried about my thought and prayed about it and I got to verse 27, the one I’ve been dwelling on all morning and when I read the part of the verse that says let not your heart be troubled, it was as if God spoke it to my heart as I read it. It was not me reading it, but God reading it to my heart.
Immediately, I felt a peace overflow my heart. The subject didn’t worry me anymore, which blows me away that God telling me “don’t let your heart be troubled” could give me peace about that. My God is amazing that He would care about me in the way to just touch my heart like that and let me know it’s alright, it’s in His hands and is something I don’t need to worry about and that He’s taking care of it.