Missouri Youth convention was last week. Every service God was moving! I have always felt called to be an evangelist. When I think about this calling, I think that it is going to have to wait. There’s no way that I could be an evangelist at the age of 19, only a sophomore in college, with a little home town job. Every time I think of my calling, I think about having to wait at least 5 years to get my ministry going. I’ve never thought about being in any other ministry, until now.
The second night of youth convention, the message that preacher spoke about was forgiveness. Many times we will sin and then we will ask for forgiveness but we won’t feel forgiven so we beat ourselves up and we hold on to our sins. We have a hard time forgiving ourselves. The message was all about letting go and giving it all to God because 1 John 4:9 says when we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. We don’t need to ask and ask and ask. The first time we ask for forgiveness, it is done. We are forgiven. But we tend to hold on to it. During the altar call, I saw many tears and many people letting go and being completely forgiven. I was praying for almost all the young girls in my youth group. As I was praying, something in my spirit was telling me, this is what it’s all about. This is what my future ministry is all about. I felt a burden being placed on my heart that night for youth ministry. I didn’t understand and I still don’t understand. I don’t want to be in a position of authority like that. I feel like nobody would take me seriously. I feel such an urgency though to be involved in youth ministry.
It just amazes me that God always has a work for us to do. No matter where we are or what we are facing or going through. I think of the saying that says if God closes a door, He will open a window. Right now in my situation, my evangelistic ministry door is closed but God has opened a window for temporary youth ministry. I’m excited to see how this plays out!